To look is to change

“The act of looking was somehow a force in itself which changed my whole being.”
[…]
“I had measured my life in terms of circumstances. I had thought I was happy when I was having what was generally considered ‘a good time’. But when I began to try and balance up each day’s happiness I had found that there were certain moments which had a special quality of their own, a quality which seemed to be almost independent of what was going on around me, since they occurred sometimes on the most trivial occasions. They stood out because of a feeling of happiness which was far beyond what I had ordinarily meant by ‘enjoying myself’, and because of this they tended to oust all other concerns in my daily record.”


Marion Milner in A Life of One’s Own [pg 156]

De estados adultos em construção... / reflexões em tempos de confinamento

Enquanto uns aguardam que a física quântica venha dar sentido às suas vidas, ocorre-me que a poesia, os contos de fadas e a arte, em geral, ajudam a nossa persistente criança interior a conviver com o facto de que a verdadeira condição de ser adulto é comparável a flutuarmos no espaço cósmico enquanto tentamos evitar colidir com objetos que passam voando aleatoriamente. A segurança e o conforto de um cordão umbilical já eram...


While some wait for quantum physics to give meaning to their lives, it occurs to me that poetry, fairy tales and art, in general, help our persistent inner child live with the fact that the true condition of adulthood is comparable to floating in cosmic space while trying to avoid colliding with objects that fly by randomly. The safety and comfort of an umbilical cord is long gone...


Robert & Shana ParkeHarrison: "suspended field"

Attention seeking and 'Flow' and restlessness and 'the textures of experience' / feeling the 'thingness' of things

 "I want to achieve the play attitude. By this I mean concentration in an activity which has no apparent use just for the delight of doing it. [...] I was always full of purposes, always driving myself to do more things – to read more books, to learn more languages, to see more people, not to miss anything."

Marion Milner, A Life of One's Own [pg 63]


"I wanted to get the most out of life, but the more I tried to grasp, the more I felt that I was ever outside, missing things. At that time I could not understand at all that my real purpose might be to learn to have no purposes."

Marion Milner, A Life of One's Own [pg 65]

"So I began to wonder whether there were perhaps not many gestures which I must learn in their appropriate places, but only one which really mattered. And perhaps this one offered a third possibility in the control of attention, a possibility which the books had not made clear to me at all. I must neither push my thought nor let it drift. I must simply make an internal gesture of standing back and watching, for it was a state in which my will played policeman to the crowd of my thoughts, its business being to stand there and watch that the road might be kept free for whatever was coming. Why had no one told me that the function of will might be to stand back, to wait, not to push? The lonely policeman who relied on his physical strength to keep back the crowd would soon be swept away; as my will had constantly been by the surging thoughts."

Marion Milner, A Life of One's Own [pg 75]

Namaste Sate Te

Namaste sate te
Jagat kaaranaaya


Namaste chite
Sarva lokaashrayaaya

Namo dvaita tattwaaya mukti pradaaya
Namo brahmane vyaapine shaashvataaya

Namaste sate te
Jagat kaaranaaya

Namaste chite
Sarva lokaashrayaaya

Namo dvaita tattwaaya mukti pradaaya
Namo brahmane vyaapine shaashvataaya

Namaste sate te
Jagat kaaranaaya

Namaste chite
Sarva lokaashrayaayav

Namo dvaita tattwaaya mukti pradaaya
Namo brahmane vyaapine shaashvataaya