What does it mean to regret, when you have no choice?

It's what you can bare.
There it is. No one's going to forgive me.
It was death. I chose life.

To look life in the face.
Always to look life in the face.
And to know it.
For what it is.
At last. To know it. To love it.
For what it is.
And then... To put it away.